I am With You - For Mom

On March 16 my mom would have been 78 years old. I lost my mom in 1999. While the pain of my loss has lessened considerably it will never cease altogether because of the impact she had on my life. So many little things in life can trigger a memory or a thought of her. My mom had many issues that we really could not define at that time, things we were to young to understand. Over the years I have come to realize that I have now defined what many of those issues were then, that so many people go through today. I will stop myself and say if only we could have understood. I wrote this piece years after because my heart was still so raw from the loss. I miss you mom so much and I wish that I would have taken more time to understand. Happy birthday!

I am With You

I am with you
I’m not far away
The breeze on your skin
Never to stray


I am with you
Just call my name
The soft rustle of leaves
Always the same

I am with you
Just close your eyes
You see me in dreams
Please do not cry

I am with you
Do you feel my heart
Beating with yours
Even though were apart

I am with you
Do you feel my touch
My heart is on fire
I miss you so much

I am with you
Do not dismay
Follow my whispers
For each new today

I am with you
Always for today
For each tomorrow
I am with you…

©2003 Janie Johnson

Wordle Me This

Ok so on The Reverie blog they had a post called "Wordle Me This" where they provide the words and you write your piece using these words. So listed below are the  words that we got to use. Not all of the words have to be used, but I tried to use most of them. This is a pretty short one, but it was fun being creative with someone else's words.

storm
liar
noise
bitter
rampant
thief
lurks
redemption
exposed
consumption
caverns
vestige
revival

So here is what I came up with. Please be gentle. LOL

Internally a storm rages
a malevolent thief lurks
within the caverns of my heart
dispersing its bitter venom
my heart is exposed
while this villain relishes
in its consumption

He Said, She Said

As I mentioned already, I was inspired by Tamara to get this blog up, and she led me to her site The Reverie and I found the He said, She said post. Where it prompts writers to write a piece about conflict. Not necessarily between a man and woman but something that shows conflicts between any parties. I already wrote a piece about this several years ago and I thought I might share it here.

Torn
I’m caught in the middle
I don’t know what to say
I love you both so deeply
Yet I want to run away

One is the soul of my heart
And the other of my womb
It seems my days that pass
Are always filled with gloom

With every brand new sunrise
Can’t you see inside my heart?
And how the constant fighting
Is just tearing it apart

Neither one is understanding
All of what the other needs
And I stand in the middle
To not allow the rage to feed

But my spirit feels so torn
When all I feel is disarray
I have to find a peaceful place
Just to bow my head to pray

I pray that God will lead you
And you both begin to see
Exactly what this war zone
Has torn inside of me

Our life so full of ultimatums
Those that should not be born
I wish that the both of you
Could see my heart is torn

I cannot choose between you
For that would surely be unfair
Yet it seems that I am forced to
And yet neither of you care

© 2006 Janie Johnson

An inspiration to Poetry

I was inspired really by a new friend from Booktube Tamara Woods to showcase my poetry again. I had a poetry site years ago at Geocities. They decided they did not want to host free sites anymore and therefore my site was gone. A lot of work went into the design of that website since I wrote most of the HTML Myself and because of that, I did not have the heart to start all over again.

One day my husband was reformatting my hard drive because my computer was having several issues. So I told him everything that I wanted save, including my poetry. And some how my poetry was all lost. I was disheartened over it and was utterly beside myself. One day my daughter was online looking stuff up and asked me, "Hey Mom wasn't your poetry site called Messages of the Heart?" I told her yes and asked why. Lo and behold she found a webring that had save my poetry site within it and therefore all of my poetry was found. I was truly blessed. We were able to save all of my poetry once again.

So now since I have ben inspired to once again showcase my work I decided to add a new blog which you see here that will showcase my poetry. I am not entirely sure yet as to how I will do this. I am thinking I might have separate pages for them but there are a lot of poems to share. I am sure I will figure it out in due time. So many thanks to Tamara for opening my eyes by inspiring me to share my poetry with the world again.